Ngoceh Session: #2. Am I wrong?

Am i wrong? That i don't want everything they want? Am i wrong? That i just want to be near and loved by my God? But sometimes i feel i can't reach it. My abilities are not enough for that. My faith is shaken too often. But my heart just wants it. And now i know i'm different. They always talk about "their someone" "marriage" "future couples" in group chat. But everytime they talk about that, i'm sick of it! Sometimes, i ask to my self, what happen with me? Who am i? Am i normal? :(

To be honest, i like to feel love and other positive energy too like them, yeaah of course i'm human too. But not just a temporary feeling and then when we get bored we can ditch that feelings and go with the new person. I just really want the pure love. Totally pure. It doesn't mix with ego and lust. But i know for some people it's hard to do. Yes, it's hard to just see our loved ones happy even without us. I love him very much and i know that i'm not good for him. We are very different caste. And you know, until now he doesn't know me or even he doesn't know my country. It's impossible for me to be with him. But you know that true love still wants the best and prays for her lover even in bitter conditions. Sad love story.

But, i know life isn't always about being with someone we love, right? I remember a quote that "Life is not about me and myself, or about me and you, but life is about me and my god."

So, am i wrong?

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